Pieces of Memo

demi Allah bingungg, gatau harus ngapain. Gatau harus ngomong apa. Maunya nangis.  Gw rasa setiap org bertanggung jwb atas dirinya dan perasaannya masing2. Gw yang merasa sesak karena mendem rasa kelamaan, bertanggung jawab untuk membuat diri sendiri lebih lega dengan cara confess. Dan lu bertanggung jawab untuk masa depan lu sendiri, lewat keputusan yang lu ambil skrg. Perkara gw bahagia ataupun sedih, itu bukan tanggung jawab lu lagi. Gw gak akan bilang it's your loss because you lose someone who loves you, karena menurut gw kekalahan terbesar adalah ketika lu sendiri gatau apa yang terbaik utk diri lu. Gw juga gak akan menyalahkan lu karena ngajak gw ketemu lagi, karena toh setelah ketemu sm lu gw punya banyak perubahan besar. Lu benar, gw juga benar. So, let's live our best life deh. Finally everything's over between us for the second time. Will there be the third time? Only God who knows. Thank you for being kind and gave me the closure i needed.  Now, let me just take...

Today, i just ended my 13 years crushing. He has no feeling towards me. And now i have no more crush. I realized that it's not always the reciprocated love that im looking for, but sometimes the fact that he noticed that i like him. From there, i can just make my own conclusion. Like "ah he knew already but did nothing. It explains everything"  now we're friends. he know i love him. i know he feel im too good for him (although maybe it's just a reason LOL. But it's so kind of him for keeping my pride). we're going to work on ourself more, while he's looking for someone who match (it could be me). And i'm waiting for someone who match (it could be him). Just see who will find the soulmate first. And that soulmate InsyaAllah will be our last love. because we're both planning to get married after this. no more dating.  He responded my confession well. He tell his reason clearly. No late reply. No harsh words. He kept my pride and he empathize with...